my new tattoo

A few days ago I had big problems. I got in depression. I noticed my mistakes and unfortunatelly I doN't have any chance to fix these mistakes. I didin'!t come to school and go to Taksim with my high school friends. They really encouraged me to have a tatto. actually I already had the idea since I saw the tattoo of my cousin. I looked at a few catalog to have better ideas. The tattoos seemed the same. I thought that my tatto should have been unique. I decided to write my mother's name on my arm. It sounds great. My friends supported it because the Sunday was a special day for mothers and It would be surprise for my mother. first of all, the tattoo seemed awful. but after a time It didin't hurt me and now it is great. when I showed it to my mother it made her cry! I love you mama! I will always love you

after a while and my vocation I ve started to work again. Today I talked with a mother of my student. She was really strange. She always blame the teachers due to the bad results of the students. during our conversation she compare her child with others. firstl I listened to him carefully but her words disappointed me. when she stopped her sentences I was really upset. If I were her child I would became a mounster. now I understand my students more. I don't understand the parents why can not the parents appropriate their childrens as they are. she says that her daughter lies a lot but I can not ask that she lies. I hate that because the families don't know their childrens are their clons and behave as them. If you lie and your children see that they may think lying is normal. she also said her daughter doesn't brush her teeth and asked that I could warn her to do it. hey Guy If you couldn't teach it how can I do this? how can I fix the parts which u broke? I am not a superman. I don't have any magic. If the parents become more conscious the children will be better. is it so easy ha? it is easy to finish the lifes of these children the hardest part is fixing.

After my Germany trip there are a lot of memories to share with you my followers:)(I KNow I have only one follower and she is Mrs. Garipağaoğlu) Germany was great but a bit cold. I suggest you to visit Heidelberg to have some romantic moments. what a romantic city. first off all I know that I should explain why I visited Germany. Honestly it was not only a trip. I wanted to see Heidelberg University. It was gorgeous. the reason which I wantto visit this university , I want to study there. I decided to go there a few months ago. I love ıstanbul I love turkey and my school but I don't like the share my student life with my family. I want to be more free and the only way to live my life fully is studying abroad. People always ask why I chose it actually it has a great history. It is the oldest University in europe. The scientist who works the best universities all over the world have studied there. On the other hand. This city is really calm. and it is not crowded. Istanbul make me tired now. when I was a child. Istanbul was better but now I don't want to grow up my children here although I love this city so much. I know it is so complex but I made a decision. I need to learn German but I interested in German during my education life. I love it. so I belive in myself and hope I won't face big problems while I learn it. when I pass the testdaf I can go my new home:) I am missing there! sometimes I ask myself and think about if I couldn't go. I am sure I will try to adapt the life without life and My life wont be worse than now. I have good friends good teachers and good family. I am not alone. I am happy in every situation. If I go My life ll change fully but if I won't, it doesn't make me upset. before I finish my blog I just wanna say follow your dreams and listen the voice in your heart. Belive in yourself please

If I had the chance to speak with leaders of the world.ı would try to highlight the ımportanceof the education for youth of the humankind that will be creator of the world's future,ı am aware of that there are many critical points that needs to be emphasized,however ın my opınıon,eduction ıs the most essential one of those points.I would tell them that today specially in developed countries,such as USA,England or other european countries because of the complacency of wealth young people have stopped caring for the rest of the world.they never read,they spend their valueable time surfing on the internet.they are not thoughtful as much as the older generations nowadays.They isolate themselves from the world that is in a rush.there are many present wars,starvation in african countries violation of human rights almost all parts of the world. most of them know nothing about what s goıng on ın the rest of the world.even they know they do not care.there is a consumption generation in those countries.they are forced and manupulated to consume and consume.sense of sensivity has to be given at early age,however what they get at early age is not enough tobe sensitive to world.after an age,responsibility of creating awareness is remaining to leaders of the world they have to be reminded that they will be undertaing serious burdens of the world in future by them.however world needs honest leaders.leaders that are chosen by the votes of the societies not chosen by a small rich group or help of some invisible hands.because,as we all know today in elections Money and commercials are the most effective factors.I wish those factors were realistic and efficient ideas.Surely,I would not forget to thank them for the opportunıty of expressing myself

child abuse...

when I was 13. My aunt was pregnant and my family was sent me to look after my aunt and her new born babe. new born babe was awful. when I look at her eyes firstly I thought How could I touch her. she was so innocent and could not live without someone. she had great eyes. now she is 8 and I love her so much and there is a unpredictible bound between us. although she lives in İzmir when I see her I can feel his emotions in my heart and it makes me really happy. Now I have a baby cousin too. she is my uncle's daughter and she is growing up with me. if I don't see her I can not sleep. If I don't kiss her I can not do anything. her smell and his smile is the biggest happiness for me. I know every woman has great feelings about kids because it is in our nature. the bound between me and children encourage me to be a teacher. I wish a world which every child were happy. when I see the children who were hurt by adults it make me so upset. I can't stand the dead bodies of children or his tears... all children are innocent...I come acroos the news about child abuse on tv or newspapers everyday. the world is getting worse. the adults can not satisfy with their peers and hurts the childs. stop the child abuse please! there is a lot of website or group to prevent it. their our future and our children's future are depends on them. please!

being a teacher

When I won this department I was really upset because I have wanted to be an academician during my life and study psychology. I love it so much and I want to study on it. After first term My ideas have changed fully . of course being psychologist seems great but being a guide is better. Education will miss al problems of world so the world need educated people me and my classmates will help to create well educated people. A lot of person thinks having the best guns bombs and money is the most important power. I don't agree. the power is on our mind. We should just try to use it. we will develop the children's educational process and they ll be succesful because of us. It sounds great because their succes is mine. I love being teacher and I should do this job during my life. They need me. It is a interesting feeling. every student became your own child and if they are sad u became sad if they are happy u are happier than them. Iwish all my students were succesfull on their lessons firstly I couldn't accept their failings but now I know everybody can not have same IQ and same responsibilities so every student can not be succesfull enough. each one is uniques and has different skills and my job is to develop these skills. the teacher who is in my photo is my friend from my work and the other one who use glasses is the my best student. he study @ a privite primary school and his grades are the highest ones. the other child in front of the teacher is my worst student. I wish he could not speak English. he has ADHD and his exam results are really bad but I love both of them and I help them in different situations so I can say what happens They need the teachers. I love my students!

questions

Everyday I am getting older gradually,I have been spending my life for any purpose.ı am asking to myself that do I have any dream? Or something that is worthy to life for.Someone shows me some goals.only then,ı start to try achieve it.If nobody shows me any goal,ı try to find some temporary small basic things to live for.I am waiting for something ı don t know what it is but ı waiting..I feel tired and bored of everything.I do not consider life as very important or necessary.I do not have the sense of belonging to anything.I do not have a specific passion or a subject to improve myself through ıt.I am comparing myself to others to feel myself beter and to see there is nothing wrong about me.but there is,many people have some specific passions or hobbies but ı do not.I am trying to ımagine myself when I am 70s.In a white cool house with a small garden in ayvalık.time is towards end of september.fall is coming.most probably I will be alone,because,ı am always forcede to live in grief.so I have to feel that pain also.what ı mean is that my life friend will die earlier than me most probably. Anyway,ı ask to myself that am I going to be sorry for my this indifferency to life..I am asking to myself what will ı take beside me after ı die? What will ı need after I die.When ı get older what will make me happy? There are only questions but there is no answers..ı guess ı should not be asking.just obey the rules keep living monotonious life,otherwise ı may drive myself crazy

why do I live?

before I start to write something here I had a lot of subject to exlpain my real ideas emotions or experiences but now I just want to write my feelings. To start with Life is so short. a few years ago I've just thought about studying @ university but now I just want to finish my school and earn money. while I care about my future and try to live the life is going on and I just watch it. Sometimes I want to give up every thing and live my life. I won't be 21 again. I miss alot of moments of the life which goes on. Why we are born? Why do we have to study or work. out of studying or working we just sleep and feel independent when we sleep. If I won't taste the life why I am here. I am a slav and I have to do something. I wish a world without money. Money is the biggest power. If people have a lot of money they can have the best conditions. when I look at the best universities in the world they are also the most expensive schools all over the world so I can say the money can buy every thing. It is awful. a small paper direct the people's lifes, emotions and behaviours. the patients who have more money can be treated easily. what a nice thing. It doesn't seen only in my own country. It doesn't change any part of the world. don't you see people still kill someone to have more money or there is still a lot of wars to be richer. all of us are so selfish. we don't worry about any thing. If we are okey the rest is not important. so people generally blame God. why is someone born with their great lucks others have to face a lot of problems? I wish a world with big happinesses. take care of yourself!

first trial(off-road)

Yesterday I went to the forest for off-road. Actually. the first time, I did not like it so much I thought it was dangerous and muddy. My uncle and my father are off road pilot so they prefer to have their time in the forest by racing. I love the forest if the weather is sunny, however, the pilots prefer worse weather conditions for a better off-road. I do not like spending my time by racing on every sunday. I wish I could go to shop. The sound of the cars drive me crazy. when I come back to home I can have a terrible headache. Although all bad conditions, I like it due to excitement of it. After I start to drive this ugly jeep, I ve loved it. I discharge all of my energy when I drive my cheap off-road car. I belive in myself more after a short drive . On the other hand, I can breathe fresh air in the forest and it make me great thus I feel better. Now, off-road is my other favourite sport after windsurf. I am addicted to it.